It's May. Normally I would be looking forward to Mother's Day, my birthday, warmer weather, planting flowers, the beginning of baseball season. Instead i'm dreading the start of another round of chemo.
My drs up at Mayo want me to do a 6 week chemo session with a bunch of new meds. I'm very nervous about it all. Not sure how I will tolerate the new drugs. Not looking forward to being sick. Really scared about one of the drugs they want me to try (one I reacted to 10 years ago). They feel like we need to really attack the cancer and this is their best recommendation.
I've also started some energy medicine/frequency therapy with a friend of mine. It's intriguing...and worth a shot.
I'm struggling with a lot of pain. Not gonna lie...it's making me a little (sometimes a lot) depressed. I'm uncomfortable most of the time...gets pretty frustrating. I'm on a steady diet of painkillers (tylenol/advil and hydrocodone at night)...which i absolutely hate and am not even sure if they help all that much. I hate having a night stand full of pill bottles.
Napping a lot as well since I don't sleep well at night.
Still reading the Bible, but honestly haven't had anything jump out at me lately. I know He is with me and i'm trying desperately to trust, believe, hope, etc.
Thanks always for your prayers. I could use some now for comfort and hope. I will keep fighting, but I will definitely need your help in the ring.
Sending you prayers for comfort and relief from your discomfort. Hugs, Jodi
ReplyDeleteHey Sarah! Just wanted to share from my "100 Days of Bible Promises" book that I post to Facebook each day. It's back from day 19, if you wanna stalk my FB page. I added more here than I did online. I hope this will give you some encouragement.
ReplyDelete"There's a single word that describes life, it's unpredictable. I bet you're wondering "How did I get here? This is not what I had in mind for my life!". I didn't expect to deal with these health issues, nor wanted to face this battle everyday, but I've had to learn (and still need to do more!) to trust God. Trust His Word, trust His timing, trust His plan for all of this in my life. It's so hard, because I want life to go back to normal so badly. But I must practice patience and trust You with all of my heart."
Psalm 31:14-15
But I trust in you, O Lord; I say, "My times are in Your hands".
I continue to pray for you and will ask God to provide you with comfort and hope as you start another round of chemo.
Heidi....thank you. I love your FB posts. Look forward to them every day.
DeleteI pray for days of less pain for you, sometimes hourly. I know that I can't pray your chemo away, but I can pray for your body to withstand the treatments, for your mind to be comforted, for your heart to feel the love and for your soul to never lose hope. A scripture verse from Bible study this morning. "Everything is possible for him who believes." Mark 9:23.
ReplyDeleteLove you no matter what kind of day you are having! 💕