Feelin Groovy

You're welcome if that song is in your head now too.  :)      (misery loves company)

This is my "off" week.  With treatment days on Mondays, it usually wipes me out for the rest of the week.  I'd say M-Th are the worst and I start coming out of the fog over the weekend. So it's more like a treatment week, and it's miserable.
Which makes feeling GOOD on my off week that much better! I honestly celebrate every day that I feel 'normal' and thank God every night for an amazing day of normalcy.  Yesterday I cleaned bathrooms and did laundry...usually not things to be super excited about...but being able to do them BY MYSELF?!  Yep...happy dance. Today I am planning to go to the grocery store.  My dad has been doing my grocery shopping for me and I couldn't appreciate it more...but again...excited to get my own damn groceries!  Apparently Fareway changed their store around so I need to go see what that's all about.

If my stomach cooperates, I'm also going to take a short walk with my dog (and my awesome neighbor).
You would think i might be going stir crazy without exercise.  It's been a huge part of my life for, well, ever.  It's my mental release and has always been the thing that just makes me feel good. Since my surgery in July (gall bladder removal) i haven't exercised.  Nothing more than a walk.  I am actually amazed that I'm not crawling in my skin not being able to DO something.  But i'm really not. I'm content.  It makes me wonder if maybe I needed a break? I certainly realize now that my body is working really really hard on the INSIDE, and in order for it to have the energy it needs to fight this battle, I need to let myself rest so I'm not wasting anything. I've let down a lot of my walls of independence in order to let people help me with so many things so that I can rest. I can sit on the couch while my mom cleans my bathrooms or Rhonda dusts my house and actually be OKAY with it.  That's a huge thing for me. In the past i would have been feeling super guilty and lazy and ridiculous about sitting there while other people helped me. I realize now that it's just how it has to be right now.  It's temporary.  It's also amazing.
Not feeling guilt? I'm the queen of feeling guilty about almost everything.  I literally gave up guilt for Lent one year!  But I don't have energy to waste on guilt right now.
All the energy needs to go to getting rid of the cancer. ALL. OF. IT.

It's a little cold and grey out, but my mood will not be deterred.
Sunshine and rainbows here today....all is goovy.  ;)